still smiling

德國一直是最想去考察的地方,因為有很長一段時間,帶給我最深刻的刺激啟發共鳴或驚奇的藝術家,一直都是德國出品。我想去那裡吃跟他們一樣的麵包喝一樣的水看一樣的天空。許多年過去了,始終有這些那些理由未能成行,最近聽到Teho Teardo & Blixa Bargeld的音樂,又再動了一次念頭。

(好吧其實Teho Teardo明明就是義大利人,Blixa Bargeld是出生於德國的前Bad Seeds吉他手。)〈A Quiet Life〉是從廣播聽來的,歌還未播畢,我就在itunes買了整張《Still Smiling》專輯。歌詞裡有德文、義大利文、英文交雜,因為發音的關係,那些不同語言裡的摩擦音、小舌音、彈舌音、鼻音,像編曲裡面使用的許多樂器的其中一種,發出奇特的聲響。即使不懂歌詞,仍然為樂曲中豐富的聲音使用所著迷。

在這之前不久我買過一張不錯的專輯,隔了幾天換了心情設備跟環境,從後面聽過來,突然覺得平淡無奇。但《Still Smiling》我可以在一天的任何時候,從任何一個地方開始,隨時被吸到那深沈幽暗冷漠又優雅的音場裡面去。

Still Smiling

still there?
still there.

I re-count the black days
recollect some circumstances
even though it takes my sleep
I recall the black days
the mismatches and the end of some affairs
I recall the black days
between zenith and nadir
is there a pattern anywhere?
I recall the black days
the blackest one it’s not the last one but it’s there

and somewhere down there
I’m smiling
still smiling
I’m smiling
from the bottom of my shapeless soul
I’m smiling
anyway

I recount the black days
wade through all the shadows
even so it takes my sleep
I recall the black days
the cuts and the recovery
from unnecessary growth
I recall the black days
as maybe grim and melanized
but also colourful

and somewhere down there
I’m smiling
still smiling
I’m smiling
from the bottom of my fairtrade soul
I’m smiling …

still there?